Day One

Day one went like this.  Decisions.  No drinking while taking the meds, at least until am used to them.  It would worsen my anxiety if 2 glasses of wine affected me more due to medication.  Daily exercise so that I don't gain back all the weight I just worked hard to lose.  Back to limiting sugar and eating better.

Instinctively and intellectually I know that those changes in my life alone will help.  How much? Will no wine in the evenings increase my sleep?  Will daily exercise burn off that extra adrenaline the anxiety generates?  Will the endorphins of that alone override some of my anxiety?  Will better nutrition boost that momentum?  No wine is easy, passive.  But can I keep up with the exercise and nutrition?  I am going to commit to giving it all I have.  

I will make those changes before I begin.  Day one the pill I took was a 6:30am workout.  I still feel anxious, but not overwhelming.  I enjoyed an extra glass of wine last night, knowing it would be my last in awhile and didn't sleep well as a result. Tonight I will experiment with no wine.  If I don't sleep through the night, I will take the first real pill tomorrow.  If I do sleep, I will get up and work out and replace my wine with tea again and see how it goes for another day.  

I hope to give myself a week before I begin the meds.  I want to know what improvements are related to the changes I am making and what medication is doing.  I know that I need to do a lot of work in order to make medication a temporary thing and I want to give myself a proper start.