Adjusting My Eyes

The road back is long.  My work, financial and personal life are all in parallel positions.  Coming back from the toughest places.  Every end fee, every dinner I cook at home, every night of sleep, every moment of peace is a move in the right direction.  The challenge I am finding is that all three of those roads are not one way tickets to better places.  They all have set backs.  Sometimes all of those setbacks are at once.  Some nights I still don’t sleep.  Sometimes one step ahead at work turns into a setback that cost us more than we had gained.  There are days where it all feels just as bad as before the tides turned.  The exception is the pain of estrangement, which is gone.  It has not been replaced by simple peace, but it has been replaced by a pain that is more dull and less anxiety ridden.  It looks like peace by contrast, but if you put it next to true peace, the purity of the real peace would put it to shame. What...